[He doesn't fight Dist's grip on his hands, but it does get him to start, the laughter dying off abruptly. It's startling enough for both of them - he doesn't just break like this, the last time was—
Dist's words get him to focus, though it's a bit difficult to combat the rising tide of paranoia and mania that he so desperately wants to fall into. It would be infinitely easier to just give in, but he's never really been able to shut off the logical part of his mind that insists that the moment he starts being careless is the moment he dies.
So he listens and he finds himself nodding even though nothing has really stopped the slight shaking he's doing.]
My... My apologies, I'm not... usually this...
[Well, the thought escapes him before he can finish it and he ducks his head a bit and closes his eyes as he tries to get this under control.]
I'll... be fine.
[Maybe it's the biggest lie he's told during his stay here, but it's an attempt, at least. He doesn't know what to do with people worrying about him, so he's... trying...]
THIS IS FINE
Dist's words get him to focus, though it's a bit difficult to combat the rising tide of paranoia and mania that he so desperately wants to fall into. It would be infinitely easier to just give in, but he's never really been able to shut off the logical part of his mind that insists that the moment he starts being careless is the moment he dies.
So he listens and he finds himself nodding even though nothing has really stopped the slight shaking he's doing.]
My... My apologies, I'm not... usually this...
[Well, the thought escapes him before he can finish it and he ducks his head a bit and closes his eyes as he tries to get this under control.]
I'll... be fine.
[Maybe it's the biggest lie he's told during his stay here, but it's an attempt, at least. He doesn't know what to do with people worrying about him, so he's... trying...]